The embrace

Lying in a field

on my side

my lover -

the one I seek but never find, the one I yearn to know but am denied -

lies down behind me.

His body cloaking mine

I feel the warmth of breath against my ear,

I feel the press of lips upon my cheek,

I sense him waiting.

And as quickly as he appeared,

he is gone.

I awake from this dream

with the familiar sense of longing,

frustration from

denial of desire

that seems fated to know no home.

And then it strikes me -

all these years I’ve believed myself to be waiting

upon another,

when all along you have been with me

here

closer than my breath

under my skin

acceptance and love perpetually on offer.

And it’s not me waiting

but you.

Awaiting my recognition,

my receiving

what has been held out to me,

accepting the gift

I never believed was mine to claim.

Until now.

Spring awakening:

love and birdsong fill the air,

robins mad with a passion

that envelopes me.

I will no longer

deny what calls to me

now

I am ready to roll over

and give myself

completely

to the embrace.

~ Lisa Hofmann

From the site http://dandelionseedsanddreams.blogspot.com